Unscramble

After the New year s long vacation and getting back to my office ...... am totally dazed. totally totally.
And all I did in Hyd was drive drive all around the place.
Which brings me to my car.
A Maruti 800 (donno which year. but pretty old while I was at school)
Being this Old, and after numerous threats, guffaws from a couple of frens to sell it.
Ive held on to it.
What follows are my 'misadventures' .

Ive a tendency to drive carelessly. I try to fit into every tiny weeny spaces in traffic. The small space between those two buses, i try to manuevor in. Donno in what way I gain from that but yes am mighty pleased when I do that. Often, those expensive ones- BMW, Mercedes try to keep a safe distance.

Last August after a lot of troubles, ofcourse I abused it . Nearly drove 100kms in traffic for a week, and tried to break all kinds of insane personal records.
The Oil had to be changed. Brakes wouldnt work. yeah I drove around for a week with the brakes in a sorry shape. Only after a near miss on a head on collision with a bus, did I finally convince myself that it needs to be taken to the car shed. Before which there were those numerous dents got from nearly missing (not always) autos, small cars.
So finally after a week spent in the shed, with
oil replaced
brake springs,
denting work done
engine oil leak
alternator replaced
coolant leak fixed
n lots of other stuff and me poorer by 15K I finally got it back.

And whats the status?
The engine oil is leaking again, which am ignoring for the time being. The water leaking again.
And again a problem with the battery charger.

Fear of the unknown. Fear of whats to come. Lots of apprehensions, doubts. Which way to go.
Whom to trust? Scared of opening the eyes and seeing.
When theres no longer the guiding hand, the encouragement that you so long had that you forgot you even had it. That silent support whom you ignored and never ever acknowledged.
Well, since its no longer there and no other way but forward; ...
The best way to show that gratitude when it no longer matters, march ahead with all the courage.
The courage and fullfilling all those wishes, dreams and run harder than ever before, never stopping for ... fear that once you stop for a rest you might stop for ever.