Fear n Courage

Fear of the unknown. Fear of whats to come. Lots of apprehensions, doubts. Which way to go.
Whom to trust? Scared of opening the eyes and seeing.
When theres no longer the guiding hand, the encouragement that you so long had that you forgot you even had it. That silent support whom you ignored and never ever acknowledged.
Well, since its no longer there and no other way but forward; ...
The best way to show that gratitude when it no longer matters, march ahead with all the courage.
The courage and fullfilling all those wishes, dreams and run harder than ever before, never stopping for ... fear that once you stop for a rest you might stop for ever.

In search of the Best

Is there one?
My search for the best camera. Didnt buy one for the sole reason that I didnt find the perfect one for me.
At first it was - No huge cameras. No SLR's.
So left with those midsize ones.
Why the delay again?
The size again!!
Ive seen my cousin hauling her powershot S5 around and what a pain to keep holding with both your hands.
As against the Point n shoot ones are a real steal. These are so small and really great pictures come off. And yeah just whisk it out and click away. After using one for a couple of days, Ive finally decided on the Canon SD 880. Finally Finally......
As with all electronic goods my motto- Buy It, Enjoy It.

The Morning after

The morning after the attack on Mumbai.
Some don't know yet. Its the usual commute to their offices, the hurried pace.
Most just calm, cooperating, but still there is an unnerving silence around.

My first reaction Anger. Anger at the government for being so so careless that people can just walk into a hotel and fire around. Not just the Govt at every politician. Cant they just keep their mouth shut and focus on keeping the people they are supposedly 'the leaders' of safe?
No, they have to air their irresponsible views. Divide people on Sindhi, Gujaratis, Marathas, North Indians.

If Ive to watch my back as well how am I going to concentrate on the front?
Grow up!!!

Let this be a wake up call to all politicians. There is something called a constructive opposition.
For a change, Lets have one and lets stand together.

This is for the media too. People aren't interested in those inane and stupid news you people take the trouble broadcasting sometimes.

Silent Media

We have numerous Telugu channels and probably more to come - MAA TV, ETV, ETV2, TV9,NTV, Vanitha.
Of all these TV9, NTV are the NEWS channels.

The print media for the Telugu's- Eenadu, Sakhi, Vartha, Andrapraba, Andrajyothi.

And, I havent yet included those numerous other channels, NDTV, Star News, Headlines Today.

SO, whats with the list here?
Tune into any of them during the American elections, we had an overdose of the Obama., the contestants it was just endless.
Madonna divorcing, Big Boss, Scams this is the prime time news we get.

Where are those numerous Indians who are killed in the US and the UK. Every week there's some news or the other about a bright kid losing their lives. So many lives being lost and not a whimper, whisper in the media?

They badger celebrities with all inane questions. They go to great lengths and effort to get us the very very important news on where these very important people partied, played, cried, drank.

So why the SILENCE NOW?

Is anyone investigating? Is anyone speaking out?

Literature for the none

Lately my posts have been/become so boring that I feel sick writing them. Am I brain dead?

Guess, Im so bored that it shows and no matter how I try to revamp, revitalize its just a dud.

As a Woman

As a woman Ive a power which is uniquely mine. Ive the power, time to nurture my children in the way I want. I can make them leaders as well as losers.
A new born looks first to the mother for sustainence , nurture, to exist. Infact , its the mother who points out the father. A quirky twist there.
They say when you educate a woman , you are educating a family.

In all the avatars a woman has, being a mother is the most precious. Its upto us to take care, nurture, guard the off spring. No matter how rich , poor or what God we pray to. And this in turn instils a sense of a responsibility, a discipline.

An ode to all those women, mothers. But for them, there wouldnt be any around.

comments

What follows are my comments on the following post.

Whats cooking in my Mind

A disclaimer; these are mine and mine and only mine... and they tend to change. So, dont work yourself up on any of it. You are against any of em , you are welcome to leave your comments.

That was nice post and an eye opener that there are some poeple out there who think we yoga eday!!
Well lets start, I think we as Indians tend to under write ourselves. We dont flaunt our wisdom in Ayurveda, our expertise in Mathematics and various other fields. And to make matters worse is our ever criticizing media out there. They dont waste a chance in berating .. why we didnt win enough medals in the olympics, why we have godra happening ... blah blah theres no end there!!

Has anyone noticed that
>>The world champion in chess is an Indian.
>>We had a muslim president, sikh prime ministers - all minorities.
>>We inventted the number system.
>>We are at the fore front in the software field.
We have some of the best brains in the world.

We Indians have high levels of tolerence. Which else country in the world do you so many religions openly practised? and dont overlook the fact that India is the second most populous country in the world. So many people tolerating each other is something we should be immensely proud of!!

Yes, there are unfortunate incidents happening.
Orissa was waiting to happen. And having some politicians ( who ought to be behind bars) doesnt help. All they need is a mere misunderstanding among neighbours to burn the entire town!!!

For a cchange lets not keep thinking about what the country did for us and do something for the country.
For starters lets vote. :D
Have you registered???

lol
Whan have I ever religiously stuck to one idea while writing???

gobar

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/09/24/business/businessspecial2/24farmers.html?em

Is the gobar gas patented??

Are we ready?

The following articles just instills a pride in being an Indian.

  • http://www.nytimes.com/2008/09/22/world/asia/22india.html?pagewanted=1&em
  • http://bits.blogs.nytimes.com/2008/09/22/indian-start-ups-become-more-attractive-to-venture-firms/
  • http://www.nytimes.com/2008/09/21/nyregion/connecticut/21teachct.html?ref=nyregion

How many of us really flaunt our indian roots?
I dont think not many do!!
Yeah and its so obvious in the media, where the presenters speak in accented Hindi, Telugu, Tamil..., where they wear ill fitting western wear (not that am against western wear, but doesnt it have to be comfortable atleast n look appropriate for the content that is being broadcast?)

to be contd....

Groupism

http://www.spring.org.uk/2007/11/why-groups-and-prejudices-form-so.php

That was an interesting read.
Made me start pondering on why we prefer groups and try to make one.
Well its easier and 'safer' if its a we instead of an I. It takes immense courage to go the I way.
Whereas we arent wholly responsible in a group. The group takes the blame as well as the compliments.

Think about all the groups you are part of or you see in a single day. Its surprising how many we come across ... and ofcourse on what traits was this group made.
Lunch group, commute to office group, .... lots of em.

As a second thought ... how the collective decisions even when wrong seem to be right at that point of time and we follow em, sometimes even if we dont like what we are doing.

pleasant Surprises

How much do we know about each other? How much???

I chanced on a frens blog today. I didnt even know he was into writing leave alone blogging!!
Which made me think how little I really know about my frens!!

Well... most people (me too) keep a part of their lives a secret. Which is fine with me.
The fun part is when you realize these talents in your frens.
Its a pleasant surprise.

A good one on Friendship

What is true friendship?
Friendship should not be based on considerations of fear and favour. You try to be friendly with a person who is in authority and power out of fear; or with an affluent and wealthy person in the hope of gaining some personal benefits. Wealth and status being temporary, our friendships will also turn out to be of a transitory nature. If a person is adopting wrong ways, a true friend should not be afraid of pointing out the errors of their freind, with a view to improving them. It is not enough to merely share joy with each other; but it is more important to share the sorrow with each other. Sacred friendship is that which enables one to help others, at all times, and in all circumstances.

>>Which makes me rethink about the "friendship" i share with a lot of persons i know.
And fortunately I do have people around who call a spade a spade.... no matter what. There is hope!! :)

Handicapped

Ive lost my cell and have realized how dependent ive become on the little piece!! For no reason I did avoid buying one for a long time.
Those were some days!! I do cherish em a lot. It goes without saying that talking less solves a lot of problems!!!
No talking unnecesarily. No late night calls!!! I lived in my own secluded world!!
Getting to meet me was a chore to most of my frens. Plans couldnt change last minute coz I couldnt be contacted!! It had to be pre planned!! No inane talk.
It was tough at times when Id just want someone to talk to. Well... ofcourse eventually the feeling passes off and my secrets remained with me. The wait killed the urge.
(Did I mention using the Net in my old company was curtailed. We just had about an hour daily in office times to browse. One more reason to use it wisely. )
Basically it was simple... very simple.
Yes, ofcourse there were emergencies when I wished I should own one.

But then circumstances changed and I bought myself one bringing an end to era of calmness.
What followed were late night calls, unnecessary chatter, mindless prattle, gossip, backbiting .... and not to speak about the phone bills!!
I got so used to carrying one.
Calmness unsettled me. Id just have to call and speak with somebody or the other!! How noisy Id made my life!!

Then came a day when I lost it.
Which is when I realised ... ok welll I was forced to realise the importance of silence!!
No calls .... just nothing.
For some reason the following line from Coolidges poem comes to mind

Water Water everywhere, Not a drop to drink ....

People everywhere and yet am back in my secluded world.
Which makes me think ... am not actually handicapped. :D

Brainwave??

Ive got this idea.
What if we could transfer energy. Yeah am not referring to electricity....
For instance, if my cell phone is running out of charge ... and i don't have access to charging it. What if I could just tap into a source of energy... like call up some number and the battery is charged.

Yeah i know thats far fetched and really stupid. But.. no harm in fantasizing rt?
lol

Why cant cell phones be charged using solar energy? Or, probably there r some around just that ive not heard of em yet. could be.

Another Gud one!!

Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.


We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
George Carlin

Whats Grey?

Whats grey? Is it a misconstrued version of a persons view of Good. Black as a pretence to be white?
(n' please there isnt any racist intent. black could be good n white bad... jus tht over here ive used the reverse. call it old habits die hard!!)

How many times have we acted with the thought of "its for the greater good"?
Is hurting someone to please everyone Good?
NO.
Whatever maybe the situation its either Yes or a No.
Good or Bad...
You choose to make the choice and face the consequences as well!!!

Theres no Grey in between and I appreciate people who say it outright!! These people know what they really are , they take responsibility for their actions. As opposed to people who "sacrifice for the greater good and thought of the broader picture" and excuse themselves of any responsibility. They will run from any in future ... always.. its a pattern.

Despise anyone pretending to act sweet and doing 'good' .

Happiness begets Happiness!!!

As simple as making the right choices!!!

What do I choose?
Do I choose to hate everyone and cultivate a vendetta against all who have wronged me?
OR, do I forgive and forget and let life take its course?

A crucial choice!!

Cultivating a vendata against anyone wont do me any good. On the contrary its going to fill my life with hate and drag me down .

On the contrary.. forgiving and forgetting is difficult, a lot difficult when people who have wronged you are having a ball in life.
But actually this is the easier wayout.
The minds a lot lighter and ofcourse happiness begets happiness.
:D

lol.... am i preaching?

Evil Love

Yes, Love can be evil. It turns sane insane. Sends people to their death.
Makes people blind.
Morphs some demure people into demons who will not stop at anything.
What wont Love make people do?

Alternatively, it does make people courageous. It prods to give your best shot.
It makes you stubborn... is tht evil?

Weird things love drives eone to!!!

my incessant low curve

Will there ever be an end to this?
I take one step forward and get dragged back by 2 steps.
Is there any letup to this?

Loss, Failures, Good Byes, Broken relationships.... et al.
Seen all of em in these past few years am beginning to think is there a light at the end? Is this going to herald a glorious beginnning..... mere speculation.
As an afterthought .. if ever theres a God or fate or whatever I better something good at the end. Actually ... whats good? Is it what I percieve as Good or what is actually good but I dont recognize it. God knows!!!!

BUT, am beginning to njoi the lows. Am amazed how much I can withstand and how few have been supporting me.
And any more lows .... Bring it On!!!!
lol

Wonderful times?

These are wonderful times. Well, not actually and not on all fronts.
Obama. Who d have thought that there would be such a candidate for the race to the presidency? Even Americans in their wildest dreams wouldn't have!!

Then why do some people still hang on to old ideas. Well... its not exactly old ideas. Most people are scared to get out of their comfort zones. Why cant they just let go of their fears? After all... people respect you for what you stand up for. Your courage when you run against the flow. Not when you are the perfect, please every single person!!

Unfortunately, for every Obama we have people who get scared sticking their necks out. Will they be accepted? What would people say?
What would they say?
They would say and they will, lots of demeaning stuff.... unless and until you stand your ground.

Until then, its all an mediocre life trying to fit into everyones best person mould.
Never ever being what you actually are!!!

Blogomania

Eone seems to be bitten by the blog bug. A strong medium where everyone and anyone can voice his/her side of the story.
People who'd never penned more than there signatures are actually sitting down and penning errr typing their thoughts.

Thats a positive turn. One way to chanelise all the anger, pain, happiness, or jus blogging to have your say on events.
Celebrities arent left out either. Some I really enjoy reading

Aamir: As always a stamp of his individuality.
Amitabh: Boring. Dont know how he manages to post eday.
Ram Gopal Varma: Invigorating as always.

Y not have a Fake RGV blog on the lines of Fakestevejobs?

A First

Friday evening: bought Rs1000.00 of fuel and thought I could do with it for atleast 10 days.
What unfolded the next day was a first in my life. Ive never driven this long in traffic.

Day-1
Begumpet--> Necklace road--> Dilsuknagar--> Jubilee Hills--> Mehdipatnam--> Begumpet---> Jubilee hills--> Mehdipatnam

Day-2
Mehdipatnam--> Begumpet--> Midanipur--> Begumpet--> Mehdipatnam--> Begumpet

A long day of driving around town and am bone tired.. something that I never thought id become after a drive. Driving remains my first love and on weekends is always a pleasure.(on some roads)
Especially in the late nights where Ive the roads to myself.

My realization ... am patient but intolerant to slow drivers in the fast lane. And the most violaters so far are the autowallas. They refuse to give you way even after incessant honking and force you to overtake from the left. Am I at fault??

lol .. good ones!!!




a few of my favs

I hate Java

Thts an understatement!!!

Can we force, nudge, cajole our minds to like something that we despise so much?
Like if I hate some food, for instance sushi never had it; But fish puts me off and uncooked fish is something I don't want to even think of!!!

Can I force my mind to enjoy it?
I think it should be and is possible.
should try it sometime. So when I can achieve it with food, technology is not far behind. I should be able master java. :P

See how it all boil down to food.

Am a certified M programmer. lol ...... am i?

Bus Journey

Recently traveled in a Ladies bus to my office.
The bus was crowded as usual but the journey a lot better than the normal ones for obvious reasons.
What did strike me odd , a male conductor.
Why have a male conductor in a ladies bus. There are female conductors available and they work in general ones.
Ive still no idea how they work. They must have lots of spunk to go into the crowd of men at the back and collect the money. And that too on a moving bus.
Its no big deal Malaika Arora danced on a moving a train. These ladies do similar stuff eday!!!

Coming back to the ladies bus... no clue why a male conductor in a Ladies bus!!
Any ideas??

an Empty Feeling

Am feeling empty a lot more now a days.
Probably this might be because I lost the only rock and anchor in my life. I feel empty and lost. Cant seem to trust anyone and definately not a God.
Am at logger heads with myself weighing reweighing and trying to come to a conclusion.
Feel like ripping off the fake me, fears, ....

Am again at the start from where ive started .. on a journey to discover myself. Feel lost and irritated that it takes me so long to feel myself.
If I could just sit still. get my mind not to think. force it not to think.
But most times it just runs off on a thought process I dont want to. starts witha story and weaves and its just endless.
Restless Mind.
How inane it sounds yet is actually profound.

Should seriously make a habit of meditation.

Dowry

Recently someone asked me how much is the dowry my family is giving.
A tragedy that I wasnt shocked. Or was I calmly rejoicing when I replied that we dont give dowries.

The dowry system is still prevelent but I think on a downslide.
Most gals work and are very clear on what kind of guy they want.
But have the guys caught up?
Sadly ... No. Ive come across a number of guys who insist on dowry. Their parents shamelessly ask it upfront.
Some what it in kind and some want it in cash. Most insist that the dowry should be given before the wedding.
Ive come across guys who boast that they got such n such amount for dowry. Are these guys out of their minds? Id love to show them their true worth. Apart from being good husband material (doubtful), I dont see anything speacial in any of the guys. Why not give the same amount to the gal. She'll make better use of it.
Or still better why dont the gals parents use it. This is the age they should enjoy each others and live a peaceful life. Spending it on themselves is the best way to use the hard earned money.

Lane System in Hyd

Finally a topic where I dont have to think and think what Ive to write on!! However the Hyd traffic - Its spontaneous. The flow of words, et all.

Id read that the lane system would be introduced in Hyd , probably on the same lines as in Delhi.
But wheres the place for a lane on Hyd roads.

What irritates me no end is the autowallahs have the least traffic sense. They just zoom past with least regard to safety. Change lanes as they please.
Its not only the auto guys who are guilty. The other violaters small cars.
Have noticed umpteen times people driving uptill the flyover and change lane at the last moment. Thereby accidents, traffic slows down so that the person can make up his mind at his own sweet time if he wants to take the flyover or not.

And yes there are people who take a u turn on a flyover. These guys ought to be locked up.

Nice One!!!

He who condemns himself, day and night, as petty and weak can never accomplish anything. He who thinks that he is luckless and low, thereby becomes luckless and low. Instead, when you cultivate the awareness that you are a spark of God, that you have as your reality Divinity Itself, you can become really Divine, and you can have command over all powers. “As you feel, so you become”. It is how you feel that matters most. That is the basis for all that you are. Have faith in the Atma, the Self. This is a must for every person. In its absence, man is being reduced to a monster, reveling in vice and wickedness. Your forefathers achieved prosperity, peace and joy, and succeeded in attaining their goals through that faith alone. When people lose that faith, they are certain to fall. For, that faith is the very breath of life.

Turn Around

There is no best Turn Around time than NOW!!!
How many times have we postponed calling and speaking to someone special, smiling, being pleasant, ... lots of stuff.
How I wish I could do lots of stuff now. By regretting and looking back we waste our lives wishing for something we cant undo. We fall into an ugly loop of torture and spoiling our lives in the process.

So, the tunr around time starts right now. Making the lives of loved ones a treasure. Cherishing my memories and in short living life as if it were my last day!!!

Life is a sequence of memories. Postponing just pushes those lovely memories out of our lives.
Now is the time to start working for those lovely memories... smiling, helping the needy, meditating, cleaning and more important on Living Today right Now!

Friends for laughs

A while ago Id read an article how to maintain and nurture friends. Yeah .. like a marriage friendships too need to be nurtured.
But this got me thinking what kind of friends need nurturing. Are they worth the time and energy I take to nurture the relationship?

Most of us get carried away by the bling of some relationships. Some aspects like material wealth, personal looks weigh in where they should not have been. Of course as always 'we' are far wiser than we realize!!!! The signals are all there, but we chose to ignore them. Some signals Id noticed more often..... people don't bother to call you back.
Well.... these friends are what I call Friends for Laughs. They want you just for hanging around and having a great time.

Ironically and fortunately Ive friends who have stuck around with me through all those storms ... even after I didn't work on the relationship.
At some of those trying times, its those true ones who take the trouble of calling and speaking to you. Helping out with all the stuff without even asking. In short those friends I know I can call at midnight and rant or talk.

And yes, this is the reason why am writing a blog on friendship even after theres an older post.

Moral: With one life to live, Id better pick my friends wisely.

lol.
As for my 'Friends for Laughs' Ill have the last laugh.....
lol !!!!!

सम्बरिद्ली !!!

Sambar Idli ... thats the better or higher end version of the normal Idli Sambar.
Some enterprising person must ve hit on a brilliant idea of serving the idlis immersed in the sambar , and ofcourse at a higher price than the usual Idli Sambar.

Well.. thats my latest fad. I seem to have it almost on a daily basis so much so that the guys at the South Indian restaurant I frequent know it.
So after a savouring Sambar Idlis in Hyderabad.. :) my verdict.

The Best... Swathi Tiffins @Somajiguda.
Heavenly!! The Idlis so soft and tender , the sambar at just the right temperature and consistency.... and yes they are served very hot.
Well.. ofcourse there s no place where you can sit. You will have to have it standing. A must try when the weathers a bit chilly.

The Worst Ive had so far.. @Woodlands. They serve Button Idlis and dont even bother to ask about the ghee they add.

The other good places @Anand Vihar, Shanthi.

RAS

I was just reading a blog - http://cultureswithin.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-ras.html
Reticular Activating System or RAS for short.

Gave it a try and yes it works.
I thought about what would be my top aspects in my dream job. Listed em out and 'wished' for one.
And you wont believe it, but I got a call from a firm offering me a position with some of the aspects. And got a second job offer with some of the aspects id listed out. Weird!!!
Try it does work.

My guess is, Id shortlisted all my likes and focussed on them. So when any events happen Im more likely to spot what I want because my mind has already focussed on it.

And oh yes having lots of fun with this RAS. Trying to get a meeting postponed with RAS. Lets see if this works.

Flexibility

A while ago, I was discussing with a couple of frens on older Generations ... n the stuff.
The talk went like the current generation being pulled between the Older and the Future ones. And the result is a lot of stress, low self esteem (in some case), misunderstanding (in most cases)...

My take...
Change is one thing thats Constant. Notice the paradox?!!
Every generation has their own share of responsibilities as well as flexibilities. The only difference here Flexibility with a Responsibility.
Everyone is responsible for his own destiny using flexibility in right way reaps and wrong suffering.
What is constant all through our attitude, confidence and courage to stand by our decisions.
Signing off with the oft repeated quote ... Destiny favours the courageous.

am Back

Thought of giving a long break.
But with lots of ideas zooming and lots of incidents to write about ... how can I?
For today... was thinking what if I got what I wished. Like even the most impossible of thoughts coming true.
My first reaction.. maybe Id die from the Happiness. :)
Yeah read it right .... Ever heard of anyone Dying from Happiness. Guess that would be my reaction.
Or Id be hospitalized with the Intense Happiness and might even become deranged. Is this whats called Bliss?
Both of the facts seem so contradictory.
Maybe thats the reason I dont get what I wish for.

Think about it. Think about those wishes that might make you so delirious.

Good Bye

Thanks all for the lovely feedback.
This is the last post for a long time to come maybe.

Again thanks for your time and the lovely comments people gave me.
Adios!!!
As always have fun n take care.

Journaling

A while ago, Id blogged on Happiness.
In response to the blog a fren commented on Journaling. What follows is an excerpt of a mail from a fren.

I can cover everything I can think of about Journaling. It's nothing novel. It's just what people do when they say they write in a diary. But Journaling is more to do with being honest and not to share that book with anyone. I usually don't revise anything I write unless I got some gems in there. So this is what you do..

1. Buy a nice/pretty notebook or just use a regular one. I usually get inspired by the book. So I have a fancy one.

2. When you get up in the morning, after you get freshned up - just sit down in a quiet place and write 3 pages. The minimum is 3 pages/3 sides but you can write as much as you want. You basically need to write anything that comes to mind. Don't judge. Don't write it for someone. Just dump anything that comes to your mind.

3. As this goes on for few days you will have a lot to write. Over a period of time you will hit the core feelings, thoughts, thinking patterns inside your mind. Then you would experience something like 'aha' experience.

4. Be consistent. You can write as many times you want to in a day, but you must make sure this is the first thing you do in the morning.

5. Enjoy writing it. It may be painful/helpful based upon what kind of feelings you are botching there.

6. It's kinda different from Blog because here the audience is only one - you.

7. You can write it as a letter to someone too. My wife does that. She writes it as a letter to Swami. But I can't do that because if I refer to Swami then I get this bad feeling in my stomach that He is watching me and I am doing something wrong and this prevents me from being honest in my writing. So I just write to no one. Just a brain dump.

Cool off.....

A driver is pulled over by a policeman. The police man approaches the driver’s door. “Is there a problem Officer?” The policeman says, “Sir, you were speeding. Can I see your licence please?” The driver responds, “I’d give it to you but I don’t have one.” “You don’t have one?” The man responds, “I lost it four times for drink driving.”

The policeman is shocked. “I see. Can I see your vehicle registration papers please?” “I’m sorry, I can’t do that.” The policeman says, “Why not?” “I stole this car.” The officer says, “Stole it?” The man says, “Yes, and I killed the owner.” At this point the officer is getting irate. “You what!?” “She’s in the trunk if you want to see” replied the man.

The Officer looks at the man and slowly backs away to his car and calls for back up. Within minutes five police cars show up, surrounding the car. A senior officer slowly approaches the car, clasping his half drawn gun.

The senior officer says “Sir, could you step out of your vehicle please!” The man steps out of his vehicle. “Is there a problem sir?” asked the man. “One of my officers told me that you have stolen this car and murdered the owner” replied the officer. “Murdered the owner?” asked the man in disbelief.

The officer insists, “Yes, could you please open the trunk of your car?” The man opens the trunk, revealing nothing but empty space. The officer says, “Is this your car sir?” The man says “Yes,” and hands over the registration papers. The officer, understandably, is quite stunned. “One of my officers claims that you do not have a driving licence.”

The man digs in his pocket revealing a wallet and hands it to the officer. The officer opens the wallet and examines the licence. He looks quite puzzled. “Thank you sir, one of my officers told me you didn’t have a licence, stole this car, and murdered the owner.”

The man replies, “I bet you the lying bastard said I was speeding, too!”

Another One.......

A blonde chick found herself sitting next to a lawyer on an airplane. Bored, the lawyer kept bugging the blonde wanting her to play a game of intelligence (lawyers like easy prey). Finally, the lawyer offered her 10 to 1 odds, said every time the blonde could not answer one of his questions she owed him $5, but every time he could not answer hers he’d give her $50.00. The lawyer figured he could not lose, and the blonde reluctantly accepted.

The lawyer first asked, “What is the distance between the Earth and the nearest star?” Without saying a word the blonde handed him $5.

The blonde then asked, “What goes up a hill with 3 legs and comes back down the hill with 4 legs?”

The lawyer looked puzzled. He spent nearly an hour, looking up everything he could on his laptop and even placing numerous air-to-ground phone calls, trying to find the answer. Finally, angry and frustrated, he gave up and paid the blonde $50.00

The blonde put the $50 into her purse without comment, but the lawyer insisted, “What is the answer to your question?”

Without saying a word, the blonde handed him $5.

Post Lunch

After a good lunch (am getting the hang of it. Eating a lot more than what my body can use.)
The previous blog was acidic, aggressive. Well couldn't suppress the spirit.
A bit of gyan for the poor gals.
Why some relationships make it to the altar while the others don't.
I strongly feel all girls are a bit psychic. When two people are making out , those little incidents that escape notice... these are the warning signs that the relationship wont work. He doesn't bother to introduce you to friends. You are basically a secret. Second, You are given a pseudo name on his phone list.
Third, The two of you try to keep the relationship a secret.

I think those are some of the most common and easily spotted 'signs'. Yes, it hurts but at that point I think most girls do know that the relation ship will never be a happy one. They still hang on trying to salvage or make it work. Each time giving their best shots. (I think guys have this way of thinking .. if the relationship doesn't work lets at least have a good time. The end doesn't matter for most guys. Its only the journey thats important and worthwhile... my my I'm turning out to be some pathetic K-serial dialog writer. Guess time for me to send my resume to Ekta Kapoor.)

Well ladies spot anyone of the above 'warnings'... be cautious. Spot all of them... drop it. Walkout, atleast its you who is calling the shots.

Hehehe after all the gyan .... its going to be the same mistakes again. After all falling in love is half the fun. But is it worth the pain?

See... I told yeah am in knots.

Happiness

Am bloging this after one of those low moments.

I feel happy when
-I buy a gadget.
-theres a new dress.
-the weighing machine shows an 1/2 kg less.
-a luved one calls.

Actually there were a lot others ... talking on the phone to a couple of frens, the satisfaction after ive completed a book, reading comics, chandamma............... not any more!!!

Dont trust people as I used to.
Am turning out to be a maniac.... actually am already one.
Watch Out!!!

Am still in quest for my lost self. Hoping good times come!!!
My instant solution... am going out for a drive. hmmm today am going to see how far out of hyd I can make it alone.
PEace be to all...... see I told you am gone bonkers. I did warn.

Samaritans.....

Yes ... there are some good samaritans around!!!
Was driving back home on Sat night @12.00. The traffic lights dont work at this time, most people drive with the least regard for any rules. Empty roads, absolutely no traffic who would miss a chance. Anyway was driving home and taking the right near Stanza @Himayatnagar. Saw a truck and ignored that he was speeding and honking too. Thought since thats a bigger vehicle he d slow down and I wouldnt have to slow down. Donno who in their right minds would think of bigger vehicles giving way for smaller ones. My Maruti800 is such a teeny weeny vehicle compared to the hugs truck. And all I had to do after going home was sleep. God knows why I was in such a hurry!!!!! and NO I was NOT drunk.

The truckwalla didnt slow down and I had a narrow escape. Hit the brakes on time and just missed ending up under the trucks tyres. There were a couple of guys around and they did help me in getting the car to a corner and talking the driver into giving some amount as compensation just so that it wouldnt become a police case. And yes they fixed my car too!!! Guess a first Aid. Luckily nothing drastic to both me nor the vehicle. I could nt believe people actually help and care!!! Unfortunately, me still dazed I didnt ask them their names so that I could thank them. Good Samaritans do exist!!! My faith in mankind rekindled.
Called a fren of mine. Funny part was I was joking with a fren that I was in an accident and in a hospital a couple hours before this happened. Well, Is that funny?? not to my freind though. My first reaction to my fren .. I couldnt stop laughing!! Is this whats called shock?

Anyways....am still around kicking and healthy and my car in ship shape with all the denting work done. Looks even better than before the accident.

Love n Hate

Everything is fair in Love and War. Is it so?
It gets really irritating when some people dont understand a firm No.
The very same people who were just short of God Incarnate are now the worst anyone can think of. Out comes the psycho. Sly references to a past best forgotten, black mail... et al. Just so the person can get their way.
Doesnt work. Back to the pleading, begging and crying...this too doesnt work. A vicious circle of torture.
It takes immense power, self confidence and ofcourse Love to let go of a person with dignity.

Not many gentlle men around!!

Well... thats the best way I could write keeping the persons int he dark and maintaining the anonymity.

a Positive Turn

There were those initial days... like when Id first joined in a job, when thinking of going to pizza hut or any of those outlets was expensive. Driving to office was a big NO. and Autos were simply expensive. Shopping only once a year and that too just the bare necessities. Splurging was unthinkable.

Now a days.. I jus dont recognize myself.
I hangout @Pizza Huts, Coffee Days where on an average the bill comes to 300 bucks. (Id have fainted at the thought a couple of years ago) I shop to ease my mind at times. I drive a LOT adding to the pollution (not the traffic, I drive on deserted roads).

And well it shows. Its hard to get rid of those calories.

Thankfully, I still havent lost the habit of walking to ease my mind at times. I walk a lot, and most of my frens hate me for it. I force most to walk while catching up.

Couple of changes this year.
-No more eating out @Pizza Hut's.. Ive found the best replacement I could for hangouts and eatouts. IDLI!!! If at all its eating out I stick to Idlis. No rice absolutely.
-Walking when I cant get something out of my head. It keeps me focussed on the road instead of downing a coke and a pizza and just gossiping with frens.
-Water my tonic to revitalize. Ive rediscovered its benefits. I religiously drink at least a bottle a day.

n' Driving... naaah. Thats one I cant kick. But Ive reduced. I dont drive out often. And taking an auto to any place is simply out of question.
Bought an mp3 player and I make it a point to walk to nearest bus stop and wait for the bus.

Healthy times ahead.

Count my blessings

Am fortunate that Ive had a good education. Ive a family to fall back on. Ive a job. Ive a roof over my head. Ive got a wonderful set of friends to fall back on ... no matter what.

So... what am I complaining on....

Thank You God!!!

I DRINK!!!

:)

hehe yeah am finally drinking.....
After, procrastinating for over a year, Ive forced myself finally to start drinking . Don't remember, when Id started to stop drinking. I hardly had a glass in a day and funny how I could still stay healthy.. maybe its those cups of coffee that kept me fine and sane too.

Took a long walk after lunch.. love hitec city.. lots of places where you can go take a walk. nice. Finally a place in Hyd where you can actually walk without being hit by a vehicle.n coming back to drinking...I must thank the office staff here. They religiously put a bottle at the start of the day. And this just reminds me to drink. Well, since Ive resumed to drinking after a long hiatus maybe its going to be a while before I increase it to maybe 5Bottles / day.

No harm in hoping. Just hope I do it. :)

Incase you are wondering whts this fuss about all this drinking... Im refering to Water. hehe

n' Oh yes drinking Water helps and works too. This is from a firm follower of water therapy. Combine this with a good exercise schedule my bet you actually start seeing the results pretty soon. And oh yeah watch out for those endless compliments. :D

my Evil Half

I'm at my evil best. :) (wish there were nice smiley's to insert)

I was at an IT Park today and yesterday too for lunch.I wish I had the entire day at my disposal. Its fun to watch people here. (people watching @VIT in a forthcoming post)
Just could not miss how most people Id seen were on the heavy side. Almost all of them don't ever exercise, eat the most unhealthy stuff there. The canteen boasts of the best food at subsidized rates. Guess, people here binge on food and thats an understatement.

I just couldn't imagine how much people ate. The amount was so much. Id ordered for curd rice and @20 bucks/plate , that was way too much. Three people would have a fulfilling meal with that one plate!!! Its disgusting to see people eating so much and wasting so much as well. It angers me no end to see people pile food and then waste so much. Yes, even eating too much is a waste. You are endangering yourself doing that.

And .oh yes I hardly see anyone walking. People take the elevators as opposed to the stairs. How I wish Id seen people taking walk round the IT park. Yeah they can say that they ve got lots of work n blah blah..... n funny how there isnt a Gym. Am not sure if they have a recreational facility.

What got me thinking on this is after having more than what I can manage for lunch (just so that I dont waste) I happened to see labourers working on a construction and having lunch together. All of them were fit and looked healthy. I guess they were the healthiest in the entire neighbourhood, notwithstanding the fancy stuff IT people flaunt (cars, watches...).

See I told yeah am not in a good mood and the blog is a major way of venting my anger.

Interesting stuff

I was chatting with a fren of mine and he directed me too an interesting site
http://www.joyfuljubilantlearning.com/joyful_jubilant_learning/

One topic that got me interested was how people respond to us.
Am a rotten listener. I think a lot and If I get an 'idea' am in a hurry to share it, most often by interrupting the person.

And its worse if its a KT. The person should be highly organized and stick to the schedule. Thats difficult when am on the scene. Chandra was quite exasperated at the end of the KT. I kept interrupting him at a drop of hat for any doubts. Actually I pride myself on my thought process. Its never organized. Just zooms back and forth over lots of functionality, validations, and I keep thinking of loop holes where I can catch a bug. The downside is that you lose track of the functionality thats to be covered. The upside-- its fun, catch the person off track, and yes you do get lots of bugs.

Botttomline its fun my way but a pain for the person giving the KT.

Well, after reading the blog you d be wondering what am aiming at?Thats me.. totally unorganized, haphazard, abrupt(so too with people) n lot many others. :)

New Company

Joined a new company today. And this was my first day here.

The differences so far that Ive seen... Lots of paper work. A process for everything. Everything meticulously documented... phew... there must be lots of documenting here.

My older company had none of this long winding stuff.. you wanted something.. shoot a mail to the concerned person and get it approved within a couple of hours at the max.
Well .. all things and process do have an advantages and their downsides too.

But what I miss so badly is lack of open space, TT table. I sorely miss these two. Smalll tough my last company, we were fortunate to have the entire terrace to ourselves.
Its a pain to have lunch in a small cubicle.

Well.... since the new company will eventually move to their own premises , things should start looking up.

And forgot to mention , what I miss very very much ... its a MAC. Got so used to one , now I eel it a pain to use Outlook, searching for Address Books... lots of stuff that was so simple then.

Looks Matter

A while ago I happened to read a blog where the person had written that Good Looking people were at an advantage. I agree to this only to a part.
Yeah, compared to the rest good looking people have it easy at times.
And when it comes to Love, they are at a disadvatage here. Everyone wants to date and court them. But, when it comes to commitment, majority backout coz things that didnt show up at the start of the relationship matter now. Familys views, Frens views everything matters now.
My view good looking people are at a disadvantage here. Everyone would want to date a hot babe, but noone wants to take her home to show to their moms. :)
Thats life.
Atleast thats what most Indian men are. They have the 'guts' to only court women. But, bring up any sort of a commitment , watch the men run.
If someone were Ugly..
-Not many would court em.. but the only person who comes along loves the person with all their heart and will not bear to let go come what may.

To Remember Me.....

The Day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four corners of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and the dying. At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intent and purposes, my life has stopped.
When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine.And dont call this my deathbed.Let it be called the Bed of Life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives.
Give my sight to the man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face or love in the eyes of a woman.Give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain.Give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grand - children play.Give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist form week to week.Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk.
Explore every corner of my brain.Take my cells, if necessary, and let them grow so that someday, a speechless boy will shout at the crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her window.
Burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow.
If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses and all prejudice against my fellow men.
Give my sins to the devil. Give my soul to God.
If, by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you.If you do all I have asked, I will live forever and ever and ever.

KISS Principle

Invite everyones views on this principle. ofcourse, please dont GOOGLE for it. Just write in your comments on what it could be.
n' for people who already know what the principle is all about, .... dont spill the beans.